"Because closed, you are in darkness, cut off from existence and cut off from all that is valuable. For what should you close? You can remain closed if you have not known a moment of openness. Once you have tasted the moment of openness, it is impossible to go back.

"So, the first thing you say is: 'I was first attracted to you through the mind.' You are still attracted through the mind. And mind never creates any bridge; when you are attracted through the mind you are falling in love with your own mind. You are using me as a support for your own arguments, for your own philosophy, for your own religion, and you are deceiving yourself that you are falling in love with me.

"Mind never falls in love; it is the deadly enemy of love. It is so egocentric that it will always take anything that is supportive to it, that is nourishment to it.

"These ten years I have been watching you, and I have been really surprised. You are amongst so many lovers – you see their joy, you see their songs, you see their dance, you hear their laughter – but nothing stirs within you, because everything goes into your head. And the head is the most superficial thing in your being.

"So it is not that 'in the beginning' you were attracted through the mind; I am afraid even in the end you will remain attracted through the mind. It is good to be aware of it, because then a change is possible.

"You say, 'I loved what you had to say.' That could have been listened to from a tape recorder. Do you think you will fall in love with the tape recorder? You are in love with your own ego so much that you go on gathering everything that supports it, nourishes it, makes it stronger – and this is not the place to make your ego stronger! This is the place where you should lose your ego, and hopefully will not find it again.

"The head-oriented approach to me has been destructive to your ten years; it can destroy your ten lives. You are saying, 'It has been almost ten years since you gave me sannyas.' I never give sannyas to anybody – you take sannyas."