"So even a very controlled man, disciplined, a man of character, of thinking, that man too never reaches the Way. He may be able to adjust to the society, but he is also unable to reach the Way from where the door towards the divine opens.

"You are really a mountain.

"The first thing to be understood is that the crowd must go. The polypsychic existence must become unipsychic; you must be one. That means you must be thoughtless, because thoughts are a crowd; they divide you, and every thought pulls you apart. They create chaos within you and they are always contradictory. Even when you decide, the decision is always against some part within you, it is never total.

"I have heard it happened:

"Mulla Nasruddin was very ill – tense, psychiatrically ill. And the illness was that he became, by and by, absolutely unable to make any decision – not big decisions at that, but small ones also: whether to take a bath or not, whether to wear this tie or that, whether to take a taxi to the office or drive the car – not big ones, small decisions, but he became unable to make them so he was put in a psychiatric hospital.

"Six months of treatment and everything settled, and the doctors felt that now he was okay. They said one day, 'Now, Nasruddin, you are absolutely okay. You can go back in the world, take your job, start working and functioning. We are completely satisfied that now there is nothing wrong.' But seeing a slight indecision on Nasruddin's part the doctor said, 'Don't you feel that now you are ready to go into the world and start working and functioning?'

"Nasruddin said, 'Yes and no.'

"But this is the situation. Whether you are ill or healthy is not the question, the difference is only of degree – but this remains the problem deep inside: yes and no, both.

"You love a person? – yes, and deep down is hidden the no. Sooner or later when you get bored and fed up with the yes, the no will come up and you will hate the person, the same person you loved."