"I can say it with absolute authority, because once you know the witness, there is no way to lose it, even if you want. Once you have become a watcher of your mind, then all these rationalizations that you are giving in your question will not be needed. As the watcher becomes more and more crystallized, dreams disappear.

"But you are saying, 'Indeed, I sometimes revel in adding juicy tidbits to my otherwise unguided fantasies just for the fun of it.' These are rationalizations. When you are dreaming you cannot add anything to your dream, you cannot add juicy tidbits. You are fast asleep. Your fantasies are going to remain unguided, because the guide is no longer there, not yet at least.

"But this is the cunningness of the mind, that it may even console you that you are fully aware – not only aware, but you are guiding your fantasies just for the fun of it. And it becomes clear in your question: 'This does help me to shed more light on my desires, but I sometimes wonder if I didn't get lost in the movie somewhere along the line, and still haven't found my way back out. That is, if I was ever outside in the first place.'

"You also have suspicions about your rationalization. No rationalization can be absolutely consoling. There is bound to remain the doubt, 'perhaps I am befooling myself.' And that's what you are doing. You have never been out of the movie. Even when you became a watcher, you were just playing a part in the movie.

"Because you are so interested in being a watcher, your mind can give you even that. It is a safety device of the mind, to allow you to feel that you are the watcher: don't be worried, you are outside the dream; you can even guide it a little bit, you can make it more funny, more juicy.

"And you are asking me, 'Could you please speak on the foibles of finding the workings of one's own mind a form of entertainment?' The problem is that if you are a watcher there is no mind, and if there is a mind you are not a watcher, and for the entertainment both are needed to be together – and this is existentially impossible."